Okay. I get it.

[lithera]

I get it. I don't need anything else. I needed to let myself break down and cry.

I get it.

Next time, please, please, don't give me the final clue by having my car die, okay?

I mean... Come on.

It is better than some things but I would have thought all of the stupidity happening at work, the cold that just won't go away and the other things that I'm just not mentioning out loud, but you know them, were enough.

Nope. Okay.

I got it.

And yes, I know that my life isn't that bad.

I'm just really angry at myself and I feel stupid and helpless.

I hate that.

Sean's going to help, since he has AAA and I have yet to actually really thank him for that. I've been too busy crying.

God, I suck.

(No. I know I don't, I'm just frustrated and ... this is how I deal with that. And yeah, I know there are lots of people with it worse and that's why I try not to complain about things anywhere but right now I'm feeling pretty freaking miserable. So... forgive me. This once. Please. Thanks.)

So, TracerX died in the Albertson's parking lot. I think something happened with the electrical system as the car simply would not turn over but for the first attempt after that, I still had lights and even later than that, the seat belts did their best to move. I am hoping it is something simple like a blown fuse or... I don't know... Something.

Right now, I just don't want to really think about it but... well.. I can't really do that, now can I?

Comments

[jeditigger.livejournal.com]

You have shown yourself to be one of the most even-tempered, reasonable people I've met online. You very, very rarely complain. I'm trying to remember when you have complained, in fact. The fact that you've written this post shows me just how bad things were for you today. I hope writing this post has helped you some...and I hope you know we never mind hearing you vent your frustrations. You don't seem to do so lightly.

I really, really wish you well with the car and with better luck tomorrow. You so deserve it.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie.

I'm not that awesome. I just censor myself a lot on-line. I wish I did it more RL these days.

Thank you.

[jeditigger.livejournal.com]

You'll have to prove to me your lack of awesomeness. I'm serious. You were likable from the start, and I've never seen proof to think otherwise. I hope things look up today.

Stupid cars!