Randomness..

[lithera]

Good morning sunshine, the Earth says.... KABOOM.

Don't ask.

Anyways. I think the pills are working. I have two reasons to believe this. One is the fact that I'm no longer bleeding. The second one is I am having wacky mood swings. Up, down, sideways.... This is why I can off this higher dosage to begin with. AAARRRRGGGGG.

Yesterday I went from in tears to happy bouncy in no less than five minutes. I'm getting paranoia attacks and those are much less than fun. Hopefully I'm going to be able to grab ahold of myself in the next few days. Otherwise, I need to come up with a different solution.

Nyer.

Anyway. If I'm stranger than normal in the next few days, please forgive me.

I'm working on it.

Comments

[fireballof3.livejournal.com]

KABOOM!!!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

You gonna try a zero dosage next? That might help, too...

Just and idea.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

God, I was so tired that morning. Heh heh... That was so funny.

I have done that. Right now, I'm going to see if I can grab ahold of myself and deal with it. If not, then I zero out and try again.

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[fireballof3.livejournal.com]

Good luck with the hormones. I'm glad I don't have that problem myself. I don't think I would be able to handle it very well...

Psssst!

[inevitability.livejournal.com]

It's not paranoia if they /are/ actually watching you.

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[radu.livejournal.com]

even paranoids have real enemies...

on a side note I'm starting to have anxiety attacks for no reason. Them seem to be random but I just am suddenly grip with the need to run and hide or beat something. Very very odd. Jamie witnessed one yesterday and asks, "Are you alright dude, you don't look alright?" ... yea. This is starting to suck.

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[inevitability.livejournal.com]

Beat something, it works for me. ;)

Re: Psssst!

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Ugh. That's not fun.

Mine are ugly. If I can't find anyone to talk to me, I some how form this image in my head of all of them getting together to do something specifically without me.

Logically, I know this is stupid. Even if my friends are gathering somewhere to do something without me, that's fine. More power to them.

The worst ones are when I people are talking to other people all around me, but no one is talking to me. I start to feel very alone. I hate feeling alone in a place with people I care about.

I wish you luck with your anxiety attacks.

Re: Psssst!

[fireballof3.livejournal.com]

Maybe you need to change your dosages of birth control too?

It's worth a shot...

;)

Re: Psssst!

[radu.livejournal.com]

I'm pregnant dude.. I can't take birth control.

Re: Psssst!

[fireballof3.livejournal.com]

DAMN! Well, there's your problem, now isn't it? I remember when my wife was preggers, she was soooooo hard to deal with, I just wanted to crawl into a hole and hide. And then there were other times when she was the sweetest thing. But you knew, that while she was being sweet, you had to get in all the time you could before she changed again. It's a kind of lycanthropy, I think, but I could never figure out what it was triggered by...

good luck, and remember, a silver bullet may not be the solution, it may be the trigger.

[sepulchrave.livejournal.com]

What kind are you taking?

[lithera.livejournal.com]

I don't rememeber the name right now. I can tell you when I get home.