Today, today, today...
Aug. 17th, 2006 09:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraI hate it when I get the feeling that people are just tollerating me. I know I'm paranoid. It is something I deal with and isn't normally a big deal but there are some days where I just know that people are putting up with me for whatever reason and blah, blah, blah. Looking back through my life, it is sort of amazing to see how much my life has been shaped by my rather low level paranoia. I have no idea how people who are seriously afflicted get on with living. Probably medication.
(And yes, this generally comes out more for those of you I relate to primarily on-line. It is much harder for me to look at you and /see/ if I'm annoying you. So, I have to actually ask. And then I worry if I'm asking that too much and I get all quiet and don't say anything for awhile. Yeah. I know. It's stupid. I'm working on it.)
Speaking of medication, I'm going to the doctor today. What I'm hoping will come of this is them telling me that it is my allergies that are kicking me around and nothing more serious than that. I've had a low level headache for about a million years now, to the point where I don't really notice it most of the time but it is still annoying. I'm coughing and sniffling and sneezing and generally feel as though I've had a minor sinus... thing for months now too. On top of all of that, there is a faint ringing in my ears as well as the general feelings of fatigue.
So.... We'll see if there is a complete picture there to be seen for a doctor or not. *sighs*
Paypal has defeated me. If anyone knows how to set up a donation thingy there, let me know?
And my PIRATE QUEEN (Lys) has worn away at me and I put myself out into the online meatmarket and we shall see what comes of it. OOoOoOoOO. I find it amusing that I get NO MATCHES when I put in what I really think I want.
There was something else I was going to talk about here but I can't remember what it was. I'll probably remember sometime later today when it does me no good at all.
I need new icons.
(And yes, this generally comes out more for those of you I relate to primarily on-line. It is much harder for me to look at you and /see/ if I'm annoying you. So, I have to actually ask. And then I worry if I'm asking that too much and I get all quiet and don't say anything for awhile. Yeah. I know. It's stupid. I'm working on it.)
Speaking of medication, I'm going to the doctor today. What I'm hoping will come of this is them telling me that it is my allergies that are kicking me around and nothing more serious than that. I've had a low level headache for about a million years now, to the point where I don't really notice it most of the time but it is still annoying. I'm coughing and sniffling and sneezing and generally feel as though I've had a minor sinus... thing for months now too. On top of all of that, there is a faint ringing in my ears as well as the general feelings of fatigue.
So.... We'll see if there is a complete picture there to be seen for a doctor or not. *sighs*
Paypal has defeated me. If anyone knows how to set up a donation thingy there, let me know?
And my PIRATE QUEEN (Lys) has worn away at me and I put myself out into the online meatmarket and we shall see what comes of it. OOoOoOoOO. I find it amusing that I get NO MATCHES when I put in what I really think I want.
There was something else I was going to talk about here but I can't remember what it was. I'll probably remember sometime later today when it does me no good at all.
I need new icons.
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Date: 2006-08-17 04:53 pm (UTC)You are not in any fashion annoying me. Just so you know. :)
*puts hand down again and hugs* :)
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Date: 2006-08-17 04:55 pm (UTC)I /know/ that is likely the same for everyone. It just doesn't ... filter all the way through to some bits of me for some reason.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-17 05:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-17 05:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-17 05:08 pm (UTC)It was vindicating in a way, acutally. *grins* Still, we'll see what happens.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:29 pm (UTC)Wanna do lunch sometime? Maybe Monday or Tuesday of next week? I'm out of town for almost a week starting next Thursday, but could do something after. I'm still working in the Financial District.
Huzzah!
Date: 2006-08-17 05:31 pm (UTC)My powers of persuasion are limitless! Some day, my herd of mongol war ponies shall ride over the remains of all those who have opposed my benevolent rule!
*ahem*
Excuse me. I don't know what came over me.
So, my personal (albiet dated - ba-dum cha) experiences with the online dating suggest that a) don't be too picky with the standards. (Not everyone is good at writing a dating profile.) and b) who cares? JUST DO IT, as the ads teach us, and worst case scenario, you get an amusing anecdote out of it.
Actually, that's not true. What you really get is the experience of psyching yourself up, worrying about what to wear again, paying attention to your hair in ways you've utterly forgotton about, and otherwise psychologically making yourself available to the opposite sex. I usually went out with 10 - 14 people before I found someone I actually liked. I don't regret a single one of the dud dates. They were great for building up my self esteem, getting me out of the house, and reminding me what I really did have to offer.
GO KAT!
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:31 pm (UTC)I'm in Columbia Tower now. I'm up for lunch... lemme look at the calendar.... Monday is certainly better than Tuesday.
Re: Huzzah!
Date: 2006-08-17 05:33 pm (UTC)Like I said, we'll see what happens with this and where it goes but... there. It is out there at least.
Re: Huzzah!
Date: 2006-08-17 05:39 pm (UTC)If it makes you feel any better, Match.com wasn't the hot shit it is now back in my day. I used the yahoo.com dating profiles. They had NO STANDARDS. I'm not kidding. I had to wade through an awful lot of, "yo bitch, you wanna ride my giant black cock" before finding the occasional, "likes SF, bad movies..." profile.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:40 pm (UTC)I'm speculating wildly and probably dancing close to the borderline of being offensive. I'll shut up now, but I'm glad to see you giving this another try.
Re: Huzzah!
Date: 2006-08-17 05:46 pm (UTC)Well, one step at a time, pirate queen. One step at a time.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-17 05:47 pm (UTC)I know how that is. Believe me, I know. I go back and forth between obsessing about that and forcing myself to not care.
As for online dating, I once tried placing an ad in The Stranger in 96 or 97. I got no responses at all. That didn't do the ego much good. Fortunately, I just was doing it out of curiousity to see what would happen more than anything.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:48 pm (UTC)I think about doing that too from time to time. They have this whole .... service thing now.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:51 pm (UTC)Oddly enough, "Math loving hippie," isn't a huge draw... Go figure.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:51 pm (UTC)Worst date: Purple haired pre-op transexual. S/he wanted to go out for Ethopian food and a nice nipple piercing. I've milked YEARS of anecdotes out of this one, so no regrets. These days, profiles all have photos. Lucky you.
Best date:
No physical chemistry AT ALL, but we hit it off on a friendly level instantly. We spent all night joking, swapping stories, and hanging out with no pressure or expectation of anything else (because really, we could tell at first sight nothing was ever going to happen). It was a blast.
Two days later, feeling good about myself and fond of the world in general, I met someone special in real life. He'd been there for awhile, but we'd never noticed one another before. I believe VERY STRONGLY in the "get your head in the game" philosophy.
I'd like to add that three very happy couples I know here in town met through Match.com. All of them have a long list of dud dates before they met one another. (In fact, I met several of the duds while they were going through the process.) Don't let a single less than perfect experience dissuade you. It's HARD to meet new people once you're out of college. You're not alone.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:52 pm (UTC)My point: shit. I don't know. Why the hell do I need a point? hah. I never need a point, I can talk about myself all day.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-17 05:53 pm (UTC)Ah, Lys, why must you live all the way across the country? I wish for to hug you.
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:53 pm (UTC)Re: Huzzah!
Date: 2006-08-17 05:54 pm (UTC)*ahem*
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Date: 2006-08-17 05:54 pm (UTC)Re: Huzzah!
Date: 2006-08-17 05:57 pm (UTC)