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litheraThere is a currently a Holly shaped hole in my existance.
I got used to not living with her and all things considered, that was probably a good move. Especially at the time.
I can't seem to get used to this crazy her being in Korea thing.
There are things I keep wanting to call her and tell her about. Things that are happening that I know she'd want to do. Things that I know would be more fun to do with her.
This spring there are all of these great colors out there - for Holly. I saw these pants yesterday that I almost bought for her so they'd be waiting here when she got back but I couldn't find them in her size.
Normally I deal with people leaving and venturing off into other places by not thinking about them when they're gone. I know that's not fair to them but... it's been what has kept me sane over a great number of years.
It isn't working.
I'm not pulling my hair out or anything like that. It's just a stream of thought that never entirely goes away. It's a new experience for me and I don't really like it.
And Holly would really love Robot Chicken.
I got used to not living with her and all things considered, that was probably a good move. Especially at the time.
I can't seem to get used to this crazy her being in Korea thing.
There are things I keep wanting to call her and tell her about. Things that are happening that I know she'd want to do. Things that I know would be more fun to do with her.
This spring there are all of these great colors out there - for Holly. I saw these pants yesterday that I almost bought for her so they'd be waiting here when she got back but I couldn't find them in her size.
Normally I deal with people leaving and venturing off into other places by not thinking about them when they're gone. I know that's not fair to them but... it's been what has kept me sane over a great number of years.
It isn't working.
I'm not pulling my hair out or anything like that. It's just a stream of thought that never entirely goes away. It's a new experience for me and I don't really like it.
And Holly would really love Robot Chicken.
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Date: 2005-03-07 11:51 pm (UTC)and for how long will she be?
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Date: 2005-03-08 12:01 am (UTC)Though Max said they might be applying for the JET program and then they'd be in Japan for who knows how long.
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Date: 2005-03-08 01:32 am (UTC)Too bad we can't get her on a IM of some sort so she could actually attend the March birthday party...even if it is through a chat. We could pass her around. :)
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Date: 2005-03-08 04:27 pm (UTC)*frump*
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Date: 2005-03-08 04:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-08 07:30 pm (UTC)