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litheraThere is a currently a Holly shaped hole in my existance.
I got used to not living with her and all things considered, that was probably a good move. Especially at the time.
I can't seem to get used to this crazy her being in Korea thing.
There are things I keep wanting to call her and tell her about. Things that are happening that I know she'd want to do. Things that I know would be more fun to do with her.
This spring there are all of these great colors out there - for Holly. I saw these pants yesterday that I almost bought for her so they'd be waiting here when she got back but I couldn't find them in her size.
Normally I deal with people leaving and venturing off into other places by not thinking about them when they're gone. I know that's not fair to them but... it's been what has kept me sane over a great number of years.
It isn't working.
I'm not pulling my hair out or anything like that. It's just a stream of thought that never entirely goes away. It's a new experience for me and I don't really like it.
And Holly would really love Robot Chicken.
I got used to not living with her and all things considered, that was probably a good move. Especially at the time.
I can't seem to get used to this crazy her being in Korea thing.
There are things I keep wanting to call her and tell her about. Things that are happening that I know she'd want to do. Things that I know would be more fun to do with her.
This spring there are all of these great colors out there - for Holly. I saw these pants yesterday that I almost bought for her so they'd be waiting here when she got back but I couldn't find them in her size.
Normally I deal with people leaving and venturing off into other places by not thinking about them when they're gone. I know that's not fair to them but... it's been what has kept me sane over a great number of years.
It isn't working.
I'm not pulling my hair out or anything like that. It's just a stream of thought that never entirely goes away. It's a new experience for me and I don't really like it.
And Holly would really love Robot Chicken.
