What to say... what to say...
May. 4th, 2004 11:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraI find myself thinking about where I want to go for Christmas. Right now I know I want to go visit family but I am not at all certain where. To be truly honest, making a trip down to Vegas for Christmas is sounding really, really good right now. Will that sound good in another month, another few months? I have no idea. Just heading to Vegas sounds like something I'd like to do.
While I've gotten the traveling bug out of my system for a little bit of time, I am still thinking of places to go and things to do. I think this is coming from all of the people around me moving in the near future. And luckily for me almost all of them are moving closer this time. That alone will make the summer, particularily later July, interesting.
Maybe things will change. Maybe they will stay the same. I, personally, am voting for change. I like change. Sure, it's scary and freaky but change is a good thing. I like to shake things up, as long as it isn't all the time.
That's the problem with work right now. Nothing has a chance to settle before it is changed again. I feel as though I've been told that I have to run as fast as I can but only when a certain thing happens. And that certain thing changes every day and all of the things previous are happening. "Wait... was I waiting for that? Or.. am I waiting for something else...?"
Despite my complaining, I do like it here. I do, generally, like my job. I'm just /always/ wondering if there isn't something else I should/could/would like to be doing. Nothing I think of seems to stick with me long enough for it to be a true drive, something I really want to do.
Of course, that's me. Though I do a lot of circling around and what looks like backtracking at times, I'm always moving in some direction, somewhere.
For every though I type out here there are another ten I don't express. Not looking for advice, just looking for a place to pool thoughts, so I can get these out of the way and move on to the next set.
I should finish my Peloponesian War reading. I have a lot of it. I'll finish Sethra Lavode and then go back to reading about long dead people and long finished conflicts.
While I've gotten the traveling bug out of my system for a little bit of time, I am still thinking of places to go and things to do. I think this is coming from all of the people around me moving in the near future. And luckily for me almost all of them are moving closer this time. That alone will make the summer, particularily later July, interesting.
Maybe things will change. Maybe they will stay the same. I, personally, am voting for change. I like change. Sure, it's scary and freaky but change is a good thing. I like to shake things up, as long as it isn't all the time.
That's the problem with work right now. Nothing has a chance to settle before it is changed again. I feel as though I've been told that I have to run as fast as I can but only when a certain thing happens. And that certain thing changes every day and all of the things previous are happening. "Wait... was I waiting for that? Or.. am I waiting for something else...?"
Despite my complaining, I do like it here. I do, generally, like my job. I'm just /always/ wondering if there isn't something else I should/could/would like to be doing. Nothing I think of seems to stick with me long enough for it to be a true drive, something I really want to do.
Of course, that's me. Though I do a lot of circling around and what looks like backtracking at times, I'm always moving in some direction, somewhere.
For every though I type out here there are another ten I don't express. Not looking for advice, just looking for a place to pool thoughts, so I can get these out of the way and move on to the next set.
I should finish my Peloponesian War reading. I have a lot of it. I'll finish Sethra Lavode and then go back to reading about long dead people and long finished conflicts.
