... just don't know.

[lithera]

Things are still all in flux around me. While these times are good for amny reasons, they can also be unhappy times. Can't things settle enough for me to get a hold on something?

WHO PUSHED THE FAST FORWARD BUTTON?

It might have been me, but I stopped pushing awhile ago.

I've noticed life is like this... Nothing, nothing, nothing.... EVERYTHING! RIGHT NOW!

Did I just move into the next ring of the chain? Did I skip a few? Is there real progress at all? Am I still in the same link?

To explain the last to those of you who haven't known me for ever, I have these theories - this is one of them. I have noticed that my life goes around and around in a circular pattern of events. If I pay enough attention and I go around often enough, I can start to predict what will happen next. The point to this, is there is something I need to learn before I can move off into the next one. There was a time where I went around the same circle so many times at such a speed at the end, I thought I was going to be ill.

I figured it out, though. Looking at things right now... I think I see the circle now. So, no, I'm not moving on, it's just being pointed out to me, highlighted as it were.

It's things like this that make me believe that there is Someone out there. Life could just be like this in a natural fashion but I really doubt it.

*waves up at the sky* Hi up there. I know. We chatted a little and I asked about some things and then the world went crazy. Should I take this as a sign that we should chat more often? Whatever you're trying to prove or present to me still isn't clear. I hope I pick it up this time. Thanks!

......

Yes. I am that strange.

Comments

[thezzyzx.livejournal.com]

Hi down there,

Hope you're having fun.

[gamethyme.livejournal.com]

Life is a series of concentric circles. We spend our lives chasing our own tails and feeling as though we're getting no-where.

In reality, we're moving towards the core of ourselves.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

I don't feel like I'm getting no where at all. I've made too much progress for that.

And for me the circles have never really seemed concentric. They've always seemed more like chainmail to me - many circles linked, part of a whole but where ever you go you get a different perspective on the whole.

[gamethyme.livejournal.com]

See? That's one more difference between us.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Similar ideas and different views on them.

[trilliumgrl.livejournal.com]

For the record - I did NOT push the Fast Forward button and am actually looking for the Rewind button as we speak.

Has the circle gotten aggravating yet? I just love it when it gets to that point (note sarcasm here).

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Nope. This one isn't aggravating. It's... Well... I'm starting to pick up on it. Trying to grasp how far back it goes and all.

[trilliumgrl.livejournal.com]

That's good.

[seanb.livejournal.com]

I don't think I've found the fast forward button yet, so I doubt it was me. I think I understand the chain thing, it's almost like a smaller-scale version of the reincarnation cycle, going through smaller cycles of the same pattern until the lesson is learned, in a sequence of circles.

Hmmmm, now visualize the possibility that the entire schema is fractally self-similar, so that we see the same chain of repeating loops on every level. I'm going to have to think about that for a bit...

*HUGS*

Well, not everything is changing. I'm used to being a stabalizing factor, so feel free to use me as such.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

*grins* That's sort of the layout of the world I have in my head. I do believe in reincarnation... I have a lot of theories about this sort of stuff due to a mystical bent when I was younger and lots of inclination to think about these things.

[crispengray.livejournal.com]

I didn't so much press the fast forward button as I pressed the "everything happen now" button.

Except I think I bumped it accidentaly.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Damn it, Gavin.