A revelation...
Mar. 14th, 2003 09:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraWarning: This entry involves talk about characters of mine and it is very possible no one out there will give a damn. If you don't want to hear me talk about my characters and their evolution, don't read.
I have a strange way of thinking about my characters. They good ones are different aspects of my personality that I pull out and give a name and evolve into a person. This means that when those aspects of my personality come out, they tend to keep some of those crafted traits as well. Does that make any sense to anyone out there? I think that's the best explaination I've made of it yet.... Anyway. On to the important bits.
I had a revelation last night, thanks to Sean.
You see, I have this character Masque. Masque is a very strange person and while I am more than capable of playing Masque, this sort of character doesn't normally come into my head with /this/ many quirks. Especially one who isn't willing to talk to me to figure out why all of those quirks are there. This might sound weird, but it was almost as if the character was hiding something from me.
Masque was hiding something. Masque is another one of my characters who has evolved into someone else. So few people know both characters and I think that is another reason this happened.
You see, Masque is Cassiopeia had she survived for another few years. Had she survived Rathe. I didn't plan it - it just happened. If I had planned it, I would have made the character differently, however it fits. Some part of my subconcious was working overtime with this one, I think.
The obessesion with machines and information. The talking to cars and wanting to curl up with them. They both /hate/ being touched without being asked first. I should have realized this when I realized what Masque would do if Mika and Jonothan tried to seduce Masque. The guns, the suits, the fractures inside, the androgyny, the professionalism - especially the thing with the mentor.
It all makes sense.
The real bitchy part of it all, is now I know what gender Masque /was/. I still don't know what gender Masque /is/.
I have a strange way of thinking about my characters. They good ones are different aspects of my personality that I pull out and give a name and evolve into a person. This means that when those aspects of my personality come out, they tend to keep some of those crafted traits as well. Does that make any sense to anyone out there? I think that's the best explaination I've made of it yet.... Anyway. On to the important bits.
I had a revelation last night, thanks to Sean.
You see, I have this character Masque. Masque is a very strange person and while I am more than capable of playing Masque, this sort of character doesn't normally come into my head with /this/ many quirks. Especially one who isn't willing to talk to me to figure out why all of those quirks are there. This might sound weird, but it was almost as if the character was hiding something from me.
Masque was hiding something. Masque is another one of my characters who has evolved into someone else. So few people know both characters and I think that is another reason this happened.
You see, Masque is Cassiopeia had she survived for another few years. Had she survived Rathe. I didn't plan it - it just happened. If I had planned it, I would have made the character differently, however it fits. Some part of my subconcious was working overtime with this one, I think.
The obessesion with machines and information. The talking to cars and wanting to curl up with them. They both /hate/ being touched without being asked first. I should have realized this when I realized what Masque would do if Mika and Jonothan tried to seduce Masque. The guns, the suits, the fractures inside, the androgyny, the professionalism - especially the thing with the mentor.
It all makes sense.
The real bitchy part of it all, is now I know what gender Masque /was/. I still don't know what gender Masque /is/.
