This should go to show how work is going right now...

[lithera]

1. I don't really have a favortie color. I have colors I like a lot, but the one I prefer most at any point changes with my mood.
2. My eyes change color with mood and clothing.
3. I have lied to myself so well that there are somethings that I 'remember' that never actually happened.
4. Most of the time I can't tell the difference.
5. I often don't count the two boyfriends I had before college.
6. My longest relationship (just one on one dating and the like) to date was about six months.
7. I honestly prefer having friends to lovers.
8. Having both in one is never a bad thing.
9. I often get the feeling that most people have no idea of who I really am.
10. That always strikes me as strange since I will answer just about anything anyone asks me.
11. I feel passionately about many, many things.
12. I don't often show that passion since that much open emotion about something tends to scare people.
13. I tend to tell people that I love them far earlier than they are prepared to hear it.
14. My sense of time when remembering is very odd. I have trouble remembering which events happened before others.
15. I group memories into eras such as: Before Hawaii, High School, College
16. I believe in the power of belief.
17. It takes a lot to get me angry.
18. Once I'm angry, I will set out to take some sort of decisive action to fix what made me angry.
19. I have the ability to just decide to not be addicted to things anymore. Still, I never want to try it with anything stronger than cigarettes.
20. There is a very small percentage of the people in the world I find attractive.
21. For me action is an afterthought. If I have allowed myself to think it and beat down the mental objections, actually doing what ever it is, is simple.
22. I am constantly analyzing myself, trying to figure out why I do things the way I do. It helps me fix things.
23. Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever actually making myself any better.
24. I am often unsure of when I am not asking all I am and when I am imposing.
25. While I can read emotions between just about any two people on the planet, I am typically clueless about what people feel about me.
26. There is an odd state I reach where I decide that I really, really want something. A switch clicks inside of me and after that I have never failed to get whatever that was - be it a job, a video game, a relationship or anything else.
27. That switch doesn't click on very often and I wish I could figure out how to make it happen. There are things that I could use that drive for.
28. When I am nervous I cannot seem to stop talking.
29. I've been able to play any musical instrument I've ever picked up - unless there are strings involved.
30. Sometimes I wish I were stronger, harder.
31. Other times I wish I were more sensative.
32. All of my characters have some of me built into them - some much more than others.
33. There are perhaps three people who can see through the facades I put up.
34. Sometimes I can't include myself in those three people.
35. I've never fallen out of love with someone I have truly loved.
36. I have convinced myself that I have been in love when I wasn't.
37. I have a strong sense of 'should'. If it is something I should do, I likely will.
38. Being late to something drives me crazy, unless I planned it.
39. The more important something is for me to say to someone, the more likely it is that I will write it down and give it to them that way.
40. People I can't figure out fascinate me.
41. From time to time a powerful maternal instinct kicks in inside me.
42. Even yet, I am terrified to be a mother.
43. Still, I would love to raise a child if all of my conditions for doing so were met.
44. I think the best conversations are the ones without words.
45. Some part of me thrives on awkward social situations.
46. I hate it when my friends fight.
47. When I was young my parents started spelling everything in front of me when I was young. When I figured that out, they started spelling backwards. After that it was pig latin. After that it was military code. (Alpha, Bravo, Charlie, Delta....) After that they gave up.
48. I started reading small words before age 2. I started with novels (Little House in the Big Woods) at 4.
49. My first word was cracker.
50. It always feels like there should be something more, but that more never seems to clarify for me.
51. Most of my best friends have been male.
52. I enjoy being able to be a protector or guardian.
53. I really enjoy pretty cars and motorcyles.
54. I prefer cold to hot.
55. There are very, very few things I have not ever told anyone.
56. I can be very vindictive, manipulative, bitchy and evil. I do my best to channel that into roleplaying.
57. Some part of me enjoys hurting people. I also try to express that only through roleplaying situations.
58. Reading well written evil or sociopathic characters helps too.
59. I am very sensative to sounds - for good or bad.
60. While I am instinctively sumbissive, it is something that has to be earned from me, much like resepect and trust.
61. I am a better second in command than a leader.
62. Reading over this list makes me wonder if there are some things on here that are TMI for some people. Then I wonder if I care.
63. I am typically very quiet during sex.
64. I enjoy things that take away my sense of control, even though that is one of the things that scares me the most.
65. The above is why I love roller coasters and is why I think I would love bungee jumping if I could ever move past the scared part.
66. I plan just about everything.
67. If I have a plan, I likely have at least one back-up plan. Likely more.
68. I have an intense fear of being alone. Though, I can handle being by myself in a room now.
69. Jealousy is my first major indication that there is something wrong in a relationship. I just have to push through the emotion enough to remember what to do after that happens.
70. I have a need for labels, terms and definitions, though things can be as ambiguous and vague as they want to be inside them.
71. I enjoy trying new things.
72. I never have as much fun traveling by myself as I do when travelling with anyone else. When there is someone else, it is an adventure.
73. I want to travel more.
74. For me there does not have to be love for sex, but there must be a high level of trust. Most times the level of trust that has to be there only comes with love.
75. I prefer men to be taller than me and women shorter.
76. Intellegence is very attractive to me, but almost exclusively when paired with a sharp wit, sarcasm and a sense of style.
77. I always feel like an idiot around people I am attracted to - either I can't stop talking or I don't say anything at all.
78. It gets on my nerves when I know I am correct about something and no one belives me.
79. Writing lists like this always makes me feel as though I'm making myself look better (or worse) than I really am even if I am telling the complete truth.
80. Sometimes I do wonder why we can't all just get along.
81. Even still, I know there are some people who just never will get along.
82. Sometimes I find things funny for reasons I don't understand.
83. When playing on the playground when I was younger, I was the helpless princess once. I got bored and never did that again.
84. I need to watch Star Wars again. Soon.
85. I want endings that give closure but I hate cut and dry endings.
86. I don't believe in no win situations.
87. I am a very scent oriented person as well. I know some people by smell.
88. There are people who I could never go out with because they don't smell or sound right to me.
89. My intuition is excellent, but I can never let go enough to trust it entirely.
90. From time to time I will just say something to see what reaction it gets.
91. When a subject grabs me, I will find out everything I can about it and care about little else for a few weeks and then move on.
92. I am an amazing actress when I need to be.
93. I see patterns and connections very well.
94. I love taking things apart to see how they work.
95. I have a safe spot for rakes and rogues.
96. Someday I want to write a story that has an actual ending.
97. From time to time I have to indulge in being a girly-girl, but most times I can't stand it.
98. I despise most pastels.
99. I wonder why pink gets it own color name but everything else is light green or light blue. Why isn't it just light red?
100. I can often recognize movie music and most times place dialogue to it. It drives me crazy when I can't remember these things.

I'm going to go eat lunch now.

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Not going to reply to all of them. Not today...

[seanb.livejournal.com]

3. Similarly, there have been times I've slowly, meticulously written my beliefs. Before I took the job at Crista, I had to spend a few months restructuring myself so that i could sign the "statement of faith" in good faith. To me, that was more acceptable than lying. It didn't stick, but I think it was a good exercise.
15. Yes. Summer of 2001 started the current era (for me).
16. Yes.
20. No. It's less than half, but still a large percentage for me. However, there is a very small percentage that I find interesting.
35. Also agreed. Sometimes there's a tremendous sense of pity, sometimes it's just too painful to interact with them .... but love doesn't quite die (no matter how much you may want it to).
36. Yep.
49. Pickle
51. Female, for me.
77. Yep, I know that feeling.
80. I don't. Sometimes I miss being able to wonder that very question.

[fireballof3.livejournal.com]

#95 - wouldn't that be "SOFT spot for rakes & rogues"?

Otheriwse, you're starting your own safe house....

;-)

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[lithera.livejournal.com]

Yes, yes. You are correct.

[wandelrust.livejournal.com]

3. I have lied to myself so well that there are somethings that I 'remember' that never actually happened.

Or maybe you just think they never actually happened!

[trilliumgrl.livejournal.com]

Um, I was just thinking about some of this stuff today and mental list-constructing. Some of my list is scarily similar to yours. Odd.
Miss yous.

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[lithera.livejournal.com]

*hugs*