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And so it begins...
Feb. 12th, 2007 08:56 amThe freaking out period of travel.
About a week ahead of any major travel I do, I start to flip out a bit. I worry about all of the what ifs. I do this normally but it is normally a sort of idle wonderance. There isn't any teeth in it. Suddenly add airplanes and I'm a freaking basket case. I don't know why I'm like this. I know it has gotten worse rather than better over the past few years especially. It mighe have to do with the climate of fear around this country when it comes to airplanes.
It could be all sorts of things coming from all sorts of places. I can think of at least three possible sources. Maybe they're all joining together to form a merry band of neurosis. Who knows?
All I know is when I go to the doctor for my malaria pills tomorrow, I'm probably going to ask for something to help me stay a little calmer.... if not to sleep. I generally can't sleep on planes. If they move at all (let us say, turbulence for instance) I just wake up again. It makes for a very surreal time if I travel a long time. (How about around the world this time?)
Anyway... This isn't to get a bunch of people telling me it'll be okay. I'm working on it.
I just need to talk about these things in order to get some sort of a handle on them. As soon as I'm moving and in action, I'm fine. It is the waiting that gets me. Every damned time.
About a week ahead of any major travel I do, I start to flip out a bit. I worry about all of the what ifs. I do this normally but it is normally a sort of idle wonderance. There isn't any teeth in it. Suddenly add airplanes and I'm a freaking basket case. I don't know why I'm like this. I know it has gotten worse rather than better over the past few years especially. It mighe have to do with the climate of fear around this country when it comes to airplanes.
It could be all sorts of things coming from all sorts of places. I can think of at least three possible sources. Maybe they're all joining together to form a merry band of neurosis. Who knows?
All I know is when I go to the doctor for my malaria pills tomorrow, I'm probably going to ask for something to help me stay a little calmer.... if not to sleep. I generally can't sleep on planes. If they move at all (let us say, turbulence for instance) I just wake up again. It makes for a very surreal time if I travel a long time. (How about around the world this time?)
Anyway... This isn't to get a bunch of people telling me it'll be okay. I'm working on it.
I just need to talk about these things in order to get some sort of a handle on them. As soon as I'm moving and in action, I'm fine. It is the waiting that gets me. Every damned time.
