Why do I do this?

I always forget that Bumbershoot is Labor Day weekend until I make plans to be out of town. Dratted three day weekends. They are so convenient for escaping to other places and meeting new people. *shakes a fist in the air*

Ah well. I will just do my best to make sure people go and have a good time and enjoy the music. There is lots and lots of good stuff this year.

In case you were wondering, here is how people voted on the Constitutional ammendment yesterday. So happy both of my Senators are on the 'no' list.

And I have just found my favorite tea in the whole world.

Stuff.. and ... things..

Bumbershoot line up is here. Some amazing talent here this year.

Also Cody and I are going to see a movie tomorrow. Probably Napoleon Dynamite. Lemme know if you might be interested.

Any plans for the weekend? I think I need to go shopping. New shoes call my name as the older ones are falling apart.

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New Line Cinema has optioned feature rights for the role-playing game Vampire: The Requiem from White Wolf Publishing for producer Adam Fields. Variety says the studio is eyeing the property as a potential franchise property.

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Oh Dear God.

Interesting...

I think I need ... I think I need to get back into doing more thigs by myself. Being out where I am I've gotten into the mentality of asking for rides from my roomies to go places. I really appreciate them for doing that but it has also turned my mindset into a dependant one again. Entirely my fault.

I'd forgotten how much I like wandering around and doing things on my own. When I went downtown to set up Marci's dinner at the Cheesecake factory I had a good time walking the city by myself. I'd forgotten how much I liked things like that. I need to continue remembering it.

I think I will go shopping this weekend. Getting to Northgate is a bit of a pain but walking around on my own, even in the mall for shopping, sounds like something I need.

No offense to people, in specific or general but I think I need some time and space to let my thoughts breathe.

Generally this is a turn in my thinking across my life. It seems to touch on things from how and what I eat, to chores, to going to the gym... Pretty much everything with any importance. I don't know when it happened but I stopped doing things with myself as the reason. I also stopped doing things for myself or my own mental health. I've let what others thing start to bother me too much. I shouldn't spend so much mental time wondering what people think of my and what I'm doing.

They can do their things and I will do mine. I don't mind company on the journey but I won't let others stop me from taking it.

I'm aware I go through this cycle from time to time. Maybe one of these days I'll actually get this cemented into my brain.

I never thought I would miss living alone. No problems with the roomies - I love them all. I just miss the freedom of it. There is something about shared mental space - if that makes any sense - that makes me weary after awhile.

I used to go walking when it happened in college. Go somewhere else. Saturday, I'll do something. We'll see what it is. Maybe more than one thing.