I. Cannot. Win.

So, I have a plan. I have a plan for sleep. Yummy, yummy sleep. I get some melatonin and take some about and hour before I want to go to sleep.

But no. Oh, freaking no. I don't get to sleep an hour later. In fact... I don't get to sleep two hours later. No, I am up until... like 2 am. Once I finally do get to sleep, things do not get any better.

No, I had one of the worst dreams I have had in years. It involved the death of my father and the play/movie The Lion in Winter, which I have never seen but know the plot of fairly well. I wake up just enough to know that I am in severe pain due to my left shoulder and that there are tears sliding down my face.

After calming down, I look at the clock and find it to be 5:30. And you know what? I can't get back to sleep. No, I just enter this strange tranced zone where I don't seem to notice the passage of time but I'm not sleeping either. So, I finally get up out of bed and start to get ready.

You know what? Once I've done that... I'm suddenly sleepy. I just can't win.

However I did receive a lovely e-mail from an unexpected source this morning and that helped, as did the lovely story of Stephen Brust. I love these books to pieces. An example below:
( A summarized example )

Entertainement things...

This made me feel a little better even. The R rated trailer for Once Upon a Time in Mexico.

Indiana Jones 4 is still on track for a 2005 summer release.

The Kill Bill soundtrack looks like it will be very Tarantino, with lots of good stuff.

Keira Knightley is being eyed as the next Bond girl. Wheeeee.

The Doc Ock teaser poster is in theaters now. I must go look for it when I am next seeing a movie.

Some pictures from the Alone in the Dark set. Christian Slater has seen better days, I think.

The fun part of my day...

Here comes the part where things start to lose focus and I can't seem to concentrate. Here is also the part where I realize that I have this project I have to get done before I go to California. There are also things that I have pushed aside for this project that I need to get done. I also realize that the chances of this happening as I am right now are pretty small. I have moments of clarity where I get things done but they are coming less and less frequently. I'm tempted to go home but I'm not sure that sleeping during the day will help my problem of not being able to sleep at night. I'm laughing softly (alright, giggling, damn it) at all sorts of stupid things. It's better that I'm amused by this than upset or grumpy, because then I would be about ready to kill people.

So.... Wheeeeeeeeeeee!

I should go eat some lunch.

It has a button.... I don't know what it does....

That's about how I feel right now. I had this great idea... but... I'm in such a strange place mentally that I have no idea at all if it is really a great idea or I just /think/ it is a great idea.

Note to self... pick up Wonder Woman #195 when I go in to get comics....

This is a review from www.chud.com from Thor. This is what I had hoped for exactly.
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