... just don't know.
Aug. 12th, 2003 08:21 amThings are still all in flux around me. While these times are good for amny reasons, they can also be unhappy times. Can't things settle enough for me to get a hold on something?
WHO PUSHED THE FAST FORWARD BUTTON?
It might have been me, but I stopped pushing awhile ago.
I've noticed life is like this... Nothing, nothing, nothing.... EVERYTHING! RIGHT NOW!
Did I just move into the next ring of the chain? Did I skip a few? Is there real progress at all? Am I still in the same link?
To explain the last to those of you who haven't known me for ever, I have these theories - this is one of them. I have noticed that my life goes around and around in a circular pattern of events. If I pay enough attention and I go around often enough, I can start to predict what will happen next. The point to this, is there is something I need to learn before I can move off into the next one. There was a time where I went around the same circle so many times at such a speed at the end, I thought I was going to be ill.
I figured it out, though. Looking at things right now... I think I see the circle now. So, no, I'm not moving on, it's just being pointed out to me, highlighted as it were.
It's things like this that make me believe that there is Someone out there. Life could just be like this in a natural fashion but I really doubt it.
*waves up at the sky* Hi up there. I know. We chatted a little and I asked about some things and then the world went crazy. Should I take this as a sign that we should chat more often? Whatever you're trying to prove or present to me still isn't clear. I hope I pick it up this time. Thanks!
......
Yes. I am that strange.
WHO PUSHED THE FAST FORWARD BUTTON?
It might have been me, but I stopped pushing awhile ago.
I've noticed life is like this... Nothing, nothing, nothing.... EVERYTHING! RIGHT NOW!
Did I just move into the next ring of the chain? Did I skip a few? Is there real progress at all? Am I still in the same link?
To explain the last to those of you who haven't known me for ever, I have these theories - this is one of them. I have noticed that my life goes around and around in a circular pattern of events. If I pay enough attention and I go around often enough, I can start to predict what will happen next. The point to this, is there is something I need to learn before I can move off into the next one. There was a time where I went around the same circle so many times at such a speed at the end, I thought I was going to be ill.
I figured it out, though. Looking at things right now... I think I see the circle now. So, no, I'm not moving on, it's just being pointed out to me, highlighted as it were.
It's things like this that make me believe that there is Someone out there. Life could just be like this in a natural fashion but I really doubt it.
*waves up at the sky* Hi up there. I know. We chatted a little and I asked about some things and then the world went crazy. Should I take this as a sign that we should chat more often? Whatever you're trying to prove or present to me still isn't clear. I hope I pick it up this time. Thanks!
......
Yes. I am that strange.