Waaauuugh

[lithera]

There is a lot of crazy floating around. I'm really just trying to stay away from it and I can see the edges of it in a lot of directions. It comes and goes in waves and I've really, really, really had more than my share in the last year or so. I'd really rather not have any more of it for awhile, thanks.

I'm feeling somewhat weary of all of the fanaticism I'm seeing in the world, of all stripes, about important or non-important issues.

Man, I must be in a bad place when I just got back from vacation and already I'm feeling a bit weary and battered.

I think, on Saturday, I need a spa day. I need to go and get scrubbed to within an inch of my life and just chill and eat Korean food. Anyone else up for a trip to Olympus?

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[apestyle.livejournal.com]

I'd be down with the Korean food part.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Alas, the spa is girls only, Mr. Tim. I'd be up for dinner, sometime, though.

[candidgamera.livejournal.com]

You are a wicked, bad, naughty British man.

[eggies-red-dres.livejournal.com]

Do you go to Lynwood or Tacoma? Because I just go to use the baths and I may be ready to as well for different reasons.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Usually I go to Lynwood. I need a long soak as well.

[eggies-red-dres.livejournal.com]

I've never been to that one. I could stay in the tubs for an hour, but I don't think I could be there more than an hour and a half... If you have a time frame, I wouldn't mind tagging along.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Cool. I'll talk to Kris and see if we can come up with a time. Usually we soak for like 45 minutes and then go lay down in the rooms for like 15 and then eat and soak some more and then get scrubbies.

[eggies-red-dres.livejournal.com]

Excellent, I'll be in the loop! :D

[kielrain.livejournal.com]

I could see wanting to join....

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Awesome, though we're likely going to the one in Lynwood, which might be a trip for you, though there are more services and stuff there.

[kielrain.livejournal.com]

lemme know what time you plan on going.... k?

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Yes! I will put up a post. Probably today.

[fireballof3.livejournal.com]

I was gonna say that you might want to join, as you probabally could use a good girlie spa day....

[angrylemur.livejournal.com]

I'm starting to feel burned out, myself.

The realization that there are people who I thought were allies who honestly think it's okay to question my personhood and contributions to the world because I'm a girl is a harsh one. I admit I react in an extreme way. But it's a painful blow.

I dunno. I could take a breather and tone it down, but... there's a raw bit there for me that never completely heals over.

I get that that makes me part of the "crazy" that's going around. But. Well. I guess I feel it's more important for me to not allow myself to be dehumanized than it is for me to not come across as angry or crazy or whatever.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

I can see where you're coming from.

For me, especially in the last year or so, I've gotten oversensative to people being angry in general. I can't be around it much anymore before I start to panic and want find a dark quiet place far away from all people. If people want to be angry about things and try to change the world, that's cool, more power to you. I'm just not cut out for it these days.

[angrylemur.livejournal.com]

I understand that. I feel that way myself sometimes. But there are things I can't stop being angry about. Some days I really honestly wish that I could. But I can't.

I'd ask that you not write me off as crazy for being passionate about things, but I know that's not what you're trying to say. It does feel a little bit like that sometimes. Particularly right now, because I'm feeling kind of vulnerable today. I dunno.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

I'm not trying to say that at all.

I'm more thinking of the explosion at Scans and all of the insane that happened there, this whole RP shake up thing that happened, a whole racism and authors thing that I keep seeing extremely weird and angry pieces of but I can't even seem to understand the whole picture, general family wackiness and the general sense that death is just waiting for people I dearly love behind the next flip of the calendar.

You're passionate about things and I don't always agree with you but I don't think you're crazy. I've known truly crazy people and there is a distonct difference between crazy and passionate.

[puppygrrl.livejournal.com]

A spa trip sounds lovely, but I'm chained to my computer this weekend. I've got two fifteen page term papers (assigned a little more than a week ago is all) and a ten minute presentation due Monday. Then I get a whole week off school before jumping back in for another quarter.