I am in a bad mood.
Jun. 20th, 2008 03:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraI am not sure why, exactly, I am in a bad mood.
I'm generally grumpy but in a sort of insidious way. It is the sort of grumpy that is waiting for in the the dark corners. It is the grumpy and maybe even more than grumpy that is dragging everything else down. It is the sort of mood that makes me doubt myself, that sometimes grows into a full blown paranoia moment if I don't catch it. It is the sort of mood that isn't bad all alone but has the potential to grow into me wondering what the hell I'm doing, why I even try and wondering if maybe things would be better if I just went away and left everyone alone for awhile.
Maybe I should stop being so damned nosy and leave people to themselves. Who am I kidding with thinking that I can make things better for anyone when I can't make things better for myself?
Maybe I should go away until I'm an amazingly awesome person who makes the right moves, says the right things and has carved about half of my physical self away to be closer to where I should be.
I am in a bad mood.
Ugh.
I'm generally grumpy but in a sort of insidious way. It is the sort of grumpy that is waiting for in the the dark corners. It is the grumpy and maybe even more than grumpy that is dragging everything else down. It is the sort of mood that makes me doubt myself, that sometimes grows into a full blown paranoia moment if I don't catch it. It is the sort of mood that isn't bad all alone but has the potential to grow into me wondering what the hell I'm doing, why I even try and wondering if maybe things would be better if I just went away and left everyone alone for awhile.
Maybe I should stop being so damned nosy and leave people to themselves. Who am I kidding with thinking that I can make things better for anyone when I can't make things better for myself?
Maybe I should go away until I'm an amazingly awesome person who makes the right moves, says the right things and has carved about half of my physical self away to be closer to where I should be.
I am in a bad mood.
Ugh.
