lithera | Sleep...

I'm having one of those nights where I would much rather just not sleep.

I don't know if I can explain to anyone why that is. I love sleep most of the time. It is a great thing and I love that feeling of having just woken up and there are cold parts of the bed to expand into and you can be all lazy and just lay there for a long time. That only comes from waking up and I love that. And sleep generally makes me feel better.

But there are just some times where I don't want to sleep. There are some times where sleep feels extremely lonley. I know that I'm asleep and I don't really notice things as much when I'm asleep but obviously I do. When I'm sleeping next to someone and I haven't in awhile, I don't move while I'm sleeping. I have to wake up in order to move to make sure I'm not taking up too much room or whatever. I have conversations with people while I'm asleep.

But for whatever reason, no matter how tired I am right now (and I am rather) sleep feels very lonely and I really don't want to do it.

While I have that choice, it isn't really a realistic one. I have a long day full of a lot to do tomorrow. And I didn't get enough sleep last night. And I almost just fell asleep right then putting my head back against the couch.

Meh.