Very strange
Jan. 31st, 2006 09:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lithera... I feel a little weird.
I can't really explain it. It is something like the aftermath of someone kicking me in the stomach or something having torn loose somewhere. That nervy sort of queasy feeling of something gone wrong but I have no idea what that might be. It will pass but until then, I'll be all squirmy and a little more paranoid than normal.
I hate that.
I'm tired because I've ben getting to sleep later than I should. I'm in a good mood and at a good energy level despite that totally bizarre feeling. Holly said she thought I looked thinner. I have no idea if this is true but I do feel better, so that's the really important part for me. I should bite the bullet and get a scale but... well. I have almost a phobia about them. They're a part of the reason I hate going to the doctor's so much. I know it is better to know than not to know but in this case... I'm not sure I can deal with the self-loathing that the number I will see will cause in me.
And I don't think I've ever said that outloud before. (And I guess I still haven't but typing it is just as good in most cases right now.)
Okay. I need to get to work now.
I can't really explain it. It is something like the aftermath of someone kicking me in the stomach or something having torn loose somewhere. That nervy sort of queasy feeling of something gone wrong but I have no idea what that might be. It will pass but until then, I'll be all squirmy and a little more paranoid than normal.
I hate that.
I'm tired because I've ben getting to sleep later than I should. I'm in a good mood and at a good energy level despite that totally bizarre feeling. Holly said she thought I looked thinner. I have no idea if this is true but I do feel better, so that's the really important part for me. I should bite the bullet and get a scale but... well. I have almost a phobia about them. They're a part of the reason I hate going to the doctor's so much. I know it is better to know than not to know but in this case... I'm not sure I can deal with the self-loathing that the number I will see will cause in me.
And I don't think I've ever said that outloud before. (And I guess I still haven't but typing it is just as good in most cases right now.)
Okay. I need to get to work now.
