What to say...?
Jan. 2nd, 2004 10:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraI gave a key to myself to a great number of people on New Year's Eve. I've been trying to open myself up again for the past few months. I think it is working. I'm more emotional, I'm more the person I remember while still being the person that I had become. There are people that I've purposefully held away from myself who I'm going to do my best to stop doing that with. I realize that there were people I kept out because I was afraid they'd hurt me....
... but I never gave them that chance. That isn't fair to them or to me. I mean, sometimes things like that happen but sometimes they don't and those are the good times.
Also in the past few weeks I've repaired more than I could have imagined. Most of it with people I hadn't imagined that it was something that needed to be fixed or that I'd been ignoring as something wrong or any number of other things. It showed me that I've been holding even the people who know me the best away.
So. No more of that.
In other news, I saw Peter Pan this evening. I can look back at most of the guys I've known and see either Hook or Peter in all of them.
The movie was great. The critics need to be smacked. Leave any thoughts older than about 15 at the door and enjoy. I wanted to fly afterwards.
... but I never gave them that chance. That isn't fair to them or to me. I mean, sometimes things like that happen but sometimes they don't and those are the good times.
Also in the past few weeks I've repaired more than I could have imagined. Most of it with people I hadn't imagined that it was something that needed to be fixed or that I'd been ignoring as something wrong or any number of other things. It showed me that I've been holding even the people who know me the best away.
So. No more of that.
In other news, I saw Peter Pan this evening. I can look back at most of the guys I've known and see either Hook or Peter in all of them.
The movie was great. The critics need to be smacked. Leave any thoughts older than about 15 at the door and enjoy. I wanted to fly afterwards.
