lithera | Interesting....

Things work in waves, I've noticed. I'm impressed with myself. I know I've been talking about grad school for awhile and going to become a councelor. Well...

Today I printed out all of the requirements for getting into the three schools in the Seattle area that have programs that I want. U of W is insane. Seattle U is a little less insane in the requirements and I have yet to look carefully at SPU's.

I have discovered that I have until March of next year to get all of my ducks in a row. I need to take the GRE and I need to start doing child oriented work. Community service and paraprofessional work - which means a part-time job counceling, or teaching or day care or something. So, if you guys could keep your eyes open for opportunites in both volunteer positions and paid positions, I'd be greatful.

I also need to go talk to the state about my teaching certificate. That will be interesting and fun. Councelors don't need to be certified teachers, but it helps if they are. My certificate seems to have disappeared in the hole of official paperwork that my graduation paperwork did the first time. Not sure how I'm going to do that yet, but I will find it. I work things out.

I have never really *wanted* something There are things that have been desires, but none of them have satisfied me in any way. I thought I wanted to be a teacher, but somewhere in the middle of my student teaching I realized that wasn't what I wanted at all. It took me awhile to deal with that. I felt like a failure. Not the first time, but certainly the most ... important.

I want this. I want to help people. I want to help kids, teenagers, young adults...whever you want to call them. I have yet to find a title which I like. Most of them sound degrading to me. I want to help them get through the rough parts.

I'm scared. This is a challenge and I'm scared. I admit it.

I want this, but I'm going to need some help.