*deep breath*

Begin rollercoaster....

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now.

What a day....

First hurdle cleared on the work stuff. Not at all as bad as it might have been.

My grandfather is in the hospital again to put his hip back into place. I'm trying not to be worried about him. It is a hard thing as he is very certainly getting older, something I've seen much more physically than I ever thought I would. It is very hard to see someone I saw as so strong and undefeatable and intelligent and witty and... pretty much perfect, as far as I could tell, slowly change with age into someone fragile.

I've been trying to ignore the feeling of waiting but it is growing stronger all the time. It sets my teeth on edge and I really, really hate it. I am really very bad at accepting situations where the inevitable is that it will only get worse and there is nothing to be done about it.

It all comes at once, doesn't it?