This morning

So far this morning I've forgotten my boots, my coat, my badge for work.... It's been one of those mornings. I've gone back each time to get them, too. I did get to the gym and I did work on the elipticals and having something to eat in the car on the way to the park and ride was pretty sweet, all told. I should get to the gym earlier but there is no way I'm waking up earlier than I already do for this. I need to get down some sort of pattern I'm sure that will help some.

I feel non-coldy today. I'm hoping that this is a sign that the cold is on its way out the door. Finally.

Toothpaste with Scope in it? The taste is a bit too much for me.

And I have a new icon! Yeah! *does a happy dance*

I can be the ullltimate dad...

I'm sorry, I don't speak monkey. I'm going to have to see this movie.

Mmmmmm. Yes.

How many times...?

I'm not really sad right now. Calling it sad would be exaggerating in an absurd way. I'm calm. I'm thoughtful. I'm... I really don't have a word for how I'm feeling. I'd use melancholy but there's too much twistiness there.

I don't know how I feel right now. I do know, though, that I've been here before. I always come here when I'm doing lots of thinking.

I guess, I feel accepting. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone or not. I'm just tired of trying to talk about this and then not being able to do it.

Accepting isn't right either. I'm stuck between two opposing forces. I'm not acknowledging the pull of either on me. I've gotten use to the fact that I often have to entirely opposite desires at the same time. For example, I want to dig deep down roots and I want to move all at the same time. I want to stay, I want to go. I want to try something new, I want to stay nice and safe in my patterns. They're all the same things, aren't they? Things that everyone experiences? Saftey vs risk. New vs old.

I run into these things all of the time. Is everyone else like this too?

I've been thinking about that too recently. We're all obviously different but how do other people think? Not just what they can convey to me but how they actually think? Are there words when they think? Do they see pictures? Must they go step by step or do they arrive at conclusions?

I wish ther ewas more of a defined point to all of this.

.... Woah.

So. First - go read this.

Then... *snicker* then go watch this.

Oh My God.

"What up, beyotch..."

*snerks*