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More quirks of me...
Feb. 4th, 2002 02:04 pmI mentioned these to Kris and Kevin and so now I will post them....
The first one is I have noticed that the more nervous I am about meeting someone the more likely I am to figure out what I'm wearing in advance. There have been ocassions where I have figured it out *months* in advance, but those were rare and I was really nervous about them. The more nervous I am, the nicer the clothes, the more likely is the make-up and me doing something with my hair. Sometimes, I just will figure out what will look decent and go with that, but most times it's more complex than that. Doing this is like putting on armor for me. I know I'm not the most attractive person, but this way I don't hvae to worry about it. I know what I look like and there isn't much more I can do about it. My appearance becomes a smaller matter and I can focus on other things. The most extreme example of this is when I went to Italy. I was wearing my pinstipes and had nailpolish and eyeshadow that was nearly the same color as the pinstripes and my hair was in a French braid that I took out after it had dried so my hair was in really nice wavelets. (That and that suit is probably one of my most comfortable pieces of clothing.)
The other thing, is somewhat related to that. I have noticed that when I am talking to someone I am attracted to, I feel like an idiot. I could say the most profound thing anyone has ever said on this planet, but I would feel like a complete moron. This often causes me to get embarassed, flustered and then I *do* say something stupid. Sort of a self-fulfilling prophecy. Thus, quite often I will just stop talking, so as to save myself from it. The funny thing is, that if I actually talk to the person long enough it goes away. I'm not sure what the actual amount of time is, but it is several hours of conversation. (Not all at one point.) I've noticed that there are some people who I have gotten past this with and others who I have not.
There. More about me.
Oh, BTW, Kris and Kevin, if I can actually coherently put together what I do find attractive (forgetting about the physical part, because that's almost another issue), I'll make a list or something. Maybe I'll put it here.
The first one is I have noticed that the more nervous I am about meeting someone the more likely I am to figure out what I'm wearing in advance. There have been ocassions where I have figured it out *months* in advance, but those were rare and I was really nervous about them. The more nervous I am, the nicer the clothes, the more likely is the make-up and me doing something with my hair. Sometimes, I just will figure out what will look decent and go with that, but most times it's more complex than that. Doing this is like putting on armor for me. I know I'm not the most attractive person, but this way I don't hvae to worry about it. I know what I look like and there isn't much more I can do about it. My appearance becomes a smaller matter and I can focus on other things. The most extreme example of this is when I went to Italy. I was wearing my pinstipes and had nailpolish and eyeshadow that was nearly the same color as the pinstripes and my hair was in a French braid that I took out after it had dried so my hair was in really nice wavelets. (That and that suit is probably one of my most comfortable pieces of clothing.)
The other thing, is somewhat related to that. I have noticed that when I am talking to someone I am attracted to, I feel like an idiot. I could say the most profound thing anyone has ever said on this planet, but I would feel like a complete moron. This often causes me to get embarassed, flustered and then I *do* say something stupid. Sort of a self-fulfilling prophecy. Thus, quite often I will just stop talking, so as to save myself from it. The funny thing is, that if I actually talk to the person long enough it goes away. I'm not sure what the actual amount of time is, but it is several hours of conversation. (Not all at one point.) I've noticed that there are some people who I have gotten past this with and others who I have not.
There. More about me.
Oh, BTW, Kris and Kevin, if I can actually coherently put together what I do find attractive (forgetting about the physical part, because that's almost another issue), I'll make a list or something. Maybe I'll put it here.
