Weekend. What a thing.

Not sure how I feel about this weekend over all, really.. but.. here we go.

Friday - I worked. I came home and I cleaned. I was possesed by the spirit of cleaning. I came in and sweeped and mopped and scrubbed the kitchen. And then I did the same to my bathroom. I cleaned my room. I was working off something and I'm still not entirely sure what it was. I felt better after that. I then sat down to do some role-playing on-line. It was also good to talk to my friend while we were doing it. I was in a really bad mood before that and then during talking to her, I worked myself into a much better mood.

Saturday - I woke up early on a Saturday. I woke up pretty early, anyway. My belt test was at 9 in the morning, so I wanted to be up early enough to get a little prepared. I got up and went over everythign I needed to in my head a few times and tried to shake out the nerves. I watched some cartoons with Jen Z. and then made my way to the dojo. The test was easier and harder than I thought it would be. I don't know if I got my orange belt yet. I'll know sometime in the next week or so. All of the senseis said I did well, so my hopes are high.
I came home and tried to take a nap because I was tired, but I couldn't seem to get to sleep. I couldn't seem to concentrate on anything either, so I kind of sat and stared at the ceiling.
I got up and ate some food and then watched some hockey, waiting for some sort of plan for getting to Joe/John's party.
So we get there and I help clean. (Ugh. Oh my... Bad and not Jen or Jeff's fault.) Then Mike and Leigh and David showed up. I hadn't seen David in awhile and it was kind of shocking in a way. He really looks like both his mom and his dad and it was strange to be able to see that so clearly. While things with David were slow at first, we ended up getting along well. It's a good thing. Definately the highlight of my day. It was good seeing and talking to John. It was good hanging with Joe. I went to dinner and coffee and clubbing afterward. Clubbing... Well, I was going to go off on a rant about things about clubbing when I got home, but I was too tired. I'm kind of glad that I didn't. Some of it was self-pity, some of it was anger and some of it was generaly really tired and not thinking correctly. Anyway. It's past now.

Sunday - I sleep in a bit and just as I'm getting up, Angel calls. Yeah! Angel! I got up and took a shower and put on my pimpin' Batman shirt and headed to the mall. We shlepped around the mall and then went to go see Shrek. I must say that it was great. Go see it. Funny, funny. It seemed a little rushed to me, but it was really funny. Then Angel both spent too much at the mall, but it was okay. Angel, you rock! I love you, sweetie. Very few people I can talk to comfortably and I appreciate having you. Candle sotre!
I came home and found that we were 4 out of 7 for out D&D game. Damn. If there was ever a time we needed another party member it was last night. Four was just not enough at all. We kind of did part of what we were trying to, but we for the most part failed. A downer, really.

So now it's Monday. Meeting day. Starting out pretty well at this point. Wheeee.

Color Test...

Interesting.

Your Existing Situation:
Needs warm companionship, but is intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to her. If this is not forthcoming, is liable to shut herself away from them.

Your Stress Sources:
Feels unappreciated and finds the existing situation disagreeable. Wants personal recognition and the esteem of others to compensate for the lack of like-minded people with whom to ally herself and make herself more secure. Her sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for her to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and merge with another. This disturbs her as she regards such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome; only by not succumbing to them, she feels, can she withstand the difficulties of the situation. Wants to be valued as a desirable associate and admired for her personal qualities.

Your Restrained Characteristics:
Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence.
Willing to become emotionally involved as she feels rater isolated and alone.

Your Desired Objective:
Seeks the determination and elasticity of will necessary to establish herself and to make herself independent despite the difficulties of her situation. Wants to overcome opposition and achieve recognition.

Your Actual Problem:
Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase her self-esteem and her feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets herself high standards.

Your Actual Problem #2:
Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. This sense of powerlessness, combined with frustration that she cannot control events, subjects her to agitation, irritation, and acute distress. She tries to escape these by stubborn insistence on her own point of view, but the general condition of helplessness renders this often unsuccessful. Is therefore very sensitive to criticism and quick to take offense.

I'd say that's not too far off.