So sure...

I was so sure that today was Friday when I woke up. So sure.

Damn.

Anyway, today is great. Yesterday Anne wrote me e-mail. That make me so happy. I'd tried writing her e-mail and all of the messages I left on her machine or with her parents disappeared. Her parents are like that. "Oh by the way Anne, one of your friends from high school called." "Which one?" "I don't know. It was a girl." Yeah!!! ANNE! ANNE! ANNE! ANNE! So cool.

What else? I'm in a good mood. I'm looking forward to karaoke this evening, even if I have no idea what I'm going to sing. Not a clue. Everything I can think of ... Well, I'm not planning on signing them. Maybe I'll just sing Yellow Submarine. That in itself is a memory, but I know the words to that one.

My friend Beth got the job she wanted. It's so odd that I know an attorney. (As if she isn't going to pass the bar.) Well, I know who to go to for legal advice now.

Things are looking pretty good. I'm nervous about my belt test, but when I talked to Shihan about it, he said he was always nervous before his tests. He said it was good to be nervous. His words don't make me less nervous, but I feel okay with being that way.

Big weekend. Lots to do.

On another note...

I'm listening to Stabbing Westward live on The End. I need to pick up this album. This song called "Happy" is great.

My horoscope for today...

Sometimes I wonder fearfully is my generation's attempts to break down traditional thinking about relationships have sealed my fate. That is, while I logically accept that straightforward, monogamous intimacy isn't a long term likleyhood for the wild boys I dig, that's not enough to overcome my culturally programmed irrational longing for it. This nightmarish conflict between what your mind knows is best and what your heart wants is so familiar to you, just talking about it makes you want to scream, tear out your hair and bash in your telelvision. However, none of those will make it go away. Instead of torturing yourself, choose (arbitrarily, in necessary) which you're going to go with this week, heart of head and just stick with it.

Well, that about sums it up. That's been an internal debate for me for ages.