Wrestling with a feeling
Jun. 18th, 2010 03:06 pmThere are people I know, who are mostly on the outskirts of my life who I would like to bring closer. It can be a very challenging thing to try to maintain everything you have now and to attempt to increase the amount of time spent with those people. Sometimes distance, sometimes schedules, sometimes just sheer lack of time can be crippling blocks to this sort of thing.
That doesn't even get into the 'what if they don't actually want to know you better' portion of the program. What if they don't see you as worth the investment of time.
I started writing this thinking about a certain set of people and now I find I'm thinking about an entirely different one. Huh.
That and, oddly, this bit of my life right now is much more comparable to the Sims than I ever thought could happen. It also comes back to the fact that I'm just no good at reaching out to people some times. My overexposure threshold it much higher than most peoples but so is my 'I miss you' levels.
Hrmmmm.
That doesn't even get into the 'what if they don't actually want to know you better' portion of the program. What if they don't see you as worth the investment of time.
I started writing this thinking about a certain set of people and now I find I'm thinking about an entirely different one. Huh.
That and, oddly, this bit of my life right now is much more comparable to the Sims than I ever thought could happen. It also comes back to the fact that I'm just no good at reaching out to people some times. My overexposure threshold it much higher than most peoples but so is my 'I miss you' levels.
Hrmmmm.
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Date: 2010-06-19 12:33 am (UTC)And that was my attempt to impart some levity to the post.
My mornings often feel like the SIMs. I wake, bathroom, shower, dress, grab a bit of food, and am out the door. It's the same routine every work morning. The only thing that varies is how many times I hit the snooze button between waking and actually getting out of bed. Sometimes I think there's a little green diamond above my head as I get ready. I wish though my charisma level was higher.
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Date: 2010-06-19 12:54 am (UTC)Schedules and time are similarly easy "I wish I had more time to get together with you - you seem so awesome!" Then the ball is in their court - "How about next Friday? Or the week after?"
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Date: 2010-06-19 05:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-06-19 05:24 pm (UTC)