A real update.
Jul. 10th, 2009 10:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraPerhaps with substance.
I've been working a lot of long days the past few weeks. Lots of 10+ hour days, working at home, vendor dinners and such. (And even if the food is fantastic, vendor dinners are still work - pleasant chitchat with people you don't really know can be taxing. Business relationships are odd.) I've had some good times with friends as well, in between then and now - amazing what I've packed into the time I've had.
I know I have had even more time than it seems but recently my brain has been turning off when I don't specifically need it. Next week I will have some important meetings at work, which will be brutal and the week will be mostly prep work to build up to it. And then the week after that is San Diego. The week after that I'm trying to find a way to get to my parent's place but man, is if going to cost me a fortune, no matter which way I go. I have the money but I'm trying to be better about my spending as I've noticed it is very tempting to be all, "Oh, well, I have all that house money just... sitting there..."
Not really a safe mind set.
On the house front, the weird house sold yesterday, which is unfortunate. I have a long list of more I want to go look at. I wonder if I'm being too picky but with a house, I can't imagine that is a bad thing. It isn't like a shirt that if I don't like it, I'll just end up giving it to Goodwill or waiting until I like it again.
I feel like something is missing from me and I don't know what it is. I get this way from time to time. I wait until is passes and I'm betting a lot of it will fall away from me once I get to the airport. Travel makes me feel myself in a way that nothing else does.
I do see the irony of being frustrated with the others around me for not being able to shake out of the things that have a hold on them. Really, I do, especially when I'm taking a 'stay on target' sort of approach. It doesn't mean I don't advocate the getting up and chaking it off method. Just right now it doesn't work for me.
I've been working a lot of long days the past few weeks. Lots of 10+ hour days, working at home, vendor dinners and such. (And even if the food is fantastic, vendor dinners are still work - pleasant chitchat with people you don't really know can be taxing. Business relationships are odd.) I've had some good times with friends as well, in between then and now - amazing what I've packed into the time I've had.
I know I have had even more time than it seems but recently my brain has been turning off when I don't specifically need it. Next week I will have some important meetings at work, which will be brutal and the week will be mostly prep work to build up to it. And then the week after that is San Diego. The week after that I'm trying to find a way to get to my parent's place but man, is if going to cost me a fortune, no matter which way I go. I have the money but I'm trying to be better about my spending as I've noticed it is very tempting to be all, "Oh, well, I have all that house money just... sitting there..."
Not really a safe mind set.
On the house front, the weird house sold yesterday, which is unfortunate. I have a long list of more I want to go look at. I wonder if I'm being too picky but with a house, I can't imagine that is a bad thing. It isn't like a shirt that if I don't like it, I'll just end up giving it to Goodwill or waiting until I like it again.
I feel like something is missing from me and I don't know what it is. I get this way from time to time. I wait until is passes and I'm betting a lot of it will fall away from me once I get to the airport. Travel makes me feel myself in a way that nothing else does.
I do see the irony of being frustrated with the others around me for not being able to shake out of the things that have a hold on them. Really, I do, especially when I'm taking a 'stay on target' sort of approach. It doesn't mean I don't advocate the getting up and chaking it off method. Just right now it doesn't work for me.
