The state of Kat today....
Mar. 13th, 2001 09:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
litheraI am not very happy today. I would say that today is a moping sort of day really. Lots of things getting to me at once, I might suppose. Perhaps it is just pre-birthday funk. That happens sometimes. Of course, I'm not really obsessing about this birthday like I did the others. I've spent this past month and some change in a fog. Nothing really seems to peentrate it for very long. I don't know where its coming from and I don't know how to get rid of it. I would like it to evaportate, discorporate - just go away.
Part of it is that I don't feel comfortable around lots of people these days. If you had asked me six months ago for a list of people I would feel comfortable around right now the list I gave you wouldn't be much like the reality. It's sort of surprising. I never realy know who is going to rub me the wrong way these days and I don't know why they do. I think, in the end, its just that I need some vacation from some people. I still love them, I just need some time away. I know, I know, I went to London and that was away, but I don't think it was for long enough that I was really away. It's times like this that I really miss spring break. That week off in the middle of everything. That was really nice.
Have I talked about how I want to fall in love on here? I don't know if I've really talked about it at all. In either case, I'm going to talk about it some now. I miss being in love. Even when I was in love with someone who wasn't in love with me there was a part of me that was alive that has been sleeping for quite sometime. I miss being in love. All of the people I like enough to be interested in are either taken or quite a distance away, more the pity. There are of course the ones who are just not interested in me, of course, but that's cool. Friends are good to have.
I get paid on Friday. Thank God. I get paid for some overtime and back pay that didn't make it onto the last check and ... well, it should be a nice check. I'll have money left over after paying my bills off and I'll be able to eat. That will be superb. (Thank you Kevin for the free un-ending (seemingly anyway) supply of Ramen. Mixed in with the stuff I bought it's been a very good thing.
I've noticed since the earthquake I am much more attuned to the noises this building makes. It's interesting.
Anyway... Work now.
Part of it is that I don't feel comfortable around lots of people these days. If you had asked me six months ago for a list of people I would feel comfortable around right now the list I gave you wouldn't be much like the reality. It's sort of surprising. I never realy know who is going to rub me the wrong way these days and I don't know why they do. I think, in the end, its just that I need some vacation from some people. I still love them, I just need some time away. I know, I know, I went to London and that was away, but I don't think it was for long enough that I was really away. It's times like this that I really miss spring break. That week off in the middle of everything. That was really nice.
Have I talked about how I want to fall in love on here? I don't know if I've really talked about it at all. In either case, I'm going to talk about it some now. I miss being in love. Even when I was in love with someone who wasn't in love with me there was a part of me that was alive that has been sleeping for quite sometime. I miss being in love. All of the people I like enough to be interested in are either taken or quite a distance away, more the pity. There are of course the ones who are just not interested in me, of course, but that's cool. Friends are good to have.
I get paid on Friday. Thank God. I get paid for some overtime and back pay that didn't make it onto the last check and ... well, it should be a nice check. I'll have money left over after paying my bills off and I'll be able to eat. That will be superb. (Thank you Kevin for the free un-ending (seemingly anyway) supply of Ramen. Mixed in with the stuff I bought it's been a very good thing.
I've noticed since the earthquake I am much more attuned to the noises this building makes. It's interesting.
Anyway... Work now.
