This is me... this is me sort of burnt out...

[lithera]

Okay.

So. Now I have had three people back out of helping me with the Con room party (not to mention people who said they would come but have since pulled out). There is meant to be no guilt coming from me toward any of them. Right now, due to circumstances at work and family situations going on and a few other things, however, I don't know if I have the mental energy to do this.

All of this plus the fact that I would now be funding this entire endeavour on my own (the sort of money I /could/ be putting toward... I don't know... a ticket to my cousin's wedding in Tokyo) makes me a little inclined not doing it.

Do any of you have your hearts set on going? I'm getting the feeling that the universe is telling me 'no' on this one. Currently I'm not sure if I'm yes or no but things are looking more like no.

I still have the room, however, at the very least. Is anyone looking for any sort of crash space? I know I've mentioned the possibility of crashing to certain people but I don't know who might or not be taking me up on it.

Comments

[torquemada.livejournal.com]

Meh. Crappy. If you decide to still do the party, I will attend. If you decide to not do the party, perhaps I will abduct you for dinner or something, so that I still get some combination of you and drinks (and possibly music, though I'm not taking you clubbing) that night.

You've had a really emotionally tiring week. I am reasonbly sure that 300 will at least partially redeem it. I hope so.

[princessgeek.livejournal.com]

Aw, that was an excuse to bring jello shots. I'll survive so I guess you won't be needing the table. Is Jen still having a party there? I 'll ask her tonight.

[horriblywrong.livejournal.com]

Still going to Con, still need crash space at the least.

[pullthestars.livejournal.com]

As far as I know, she's not doing Con at all.

[princessgeek.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I"m sorry if you thought I bailed on helping you, I'm changing my birthday to lunch as soon as I verify its ok with Karen- too many can't afford my chosen restaurant. I guess I should have told you that.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

No, no, no.

Not you at all.

And even if it were you, I'm not in a blame sort of place. I am just feeling sort of.... beaten down by life right now. Everyone who has needed to not do this has had entirely valid reasons.

[lithera.livejournal.com]

Okay!

[lithera.livejournal.com]

One of my cousins will be in town for Sakura Con. I'm going to see if I can hook up with him and/or the band he manages there. You'd be welcome to join in the madness.

[torquemada.livejournal.com]

I may very well take you up on that.

[jenny-sparks.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry hon, I truly am. I know you aren't assigning blame, but I do feel lousy about it.

j~